I thought about my blog late last night. So, I looked it up and had a good dose of nostalgia. I had two blogs. One was started when I was in Adelaide. The other, in Melbourne. I am now starting a blog again, here in Brisbane.
I tried to recover access to my last blog but failed to. I felt some sense of loss, like a part of me that was penned onto a page but was not for me to have control over anymore.
Too many thoughts, too complex...Michelle. I often received these remarks from friends. I tried fighting it for a period in my life, trying to be 'simpler', thinking surely that would be the solution to joy. Now, I just tell them, it is how I am wired. It is how God has designed me to be....multifaceted, complex, and yet still loved.
I want to chronical my thoughts again. I hope to post some photos. Maybe a few videos of me playing the guitar too. I want to pen down and remember the many blessings that God has given me. Forget, often I do about the good stuff amidst the mundane and the occasional sorrow.
Maybe, it is for the best that I stop looking back and start looking ahead. Perhaps, the symbolism is in the loss of access to my old account. Chasing utopia was the title of my previous blog. It was what I thought would make me happy but it proved a futile effort to find a place or state of ideal perfection. I think I am coming into my skin more and more as I approach 30. Eek! Utopia can only be found in heaven. It is only a chase around the rabbit warren for me to find it here on earth. Until then, I want to keep fighting the good fight, I want to finish the race, and I want to keep my faith.
For nostalgia sake, here are the links to my previous blogs:
http://jillyrux.blogspot.com.au
http://michellesutopia.blogspot.com.au
Much love,
Michelle, 28 degrees.
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